Tuesday Thought Tinkerings

Good Morning Misfits!!

I was lost in my own tornado, as I was losing sight of how far I have come. I am still rewiring this brain of mine to stop trying to fit into a society that was never built for me, that tried to clip the wings of my ancestors. I am discovering my own meaning of life and purpose, success and growth, discernment versus fear, having to shit and a gut feeling.

Who am I to rebuke my own accomplishments? What was the purpose of my growth if I deny its very existence? I am the the growth. Do I not exist? Do I not interact with the world around me or am I a confused soul in another plane unseen? 

Exactly. I am here. I do exist. Therefore my accomplishments, my growth, my journey exists. 

I must strive to better love and take pride in the person I am today, in the choices I make so I am a better me tomorrow, a healthy, happy me. Allowing myself to rest to have the energy for what comes my way. 

I wrote a page of what i was thankful for to put it up on my wall so i can remind myself when I lose sight, a back to continue to add more.  I am wealthy for knowing who I am and continuing to expand the meaning of who I am and choose to be. Knowing I am in control of becoming who I want to be. 

I felt like I was trying to go through life like a workbook, doing the activities and things to get it done, to say it is done, but did I actually get to enjoy the process? Did I take time to look through the pictures, do I understand what it means? How does it apply to me? Can this apply this to my life and growth?

What do you do when you lose your sight? Do you meditate and try to center your thoughts?